diary entry #1

i kinda feel bad for the idea of leaving my mom but she doesn't deserve to treat me like this , i mean yea she's old but shes still a bitch . i hate people who are like well that's your mom you cant / don't hate her , like bull shit you don't know what i have to deal with everyday . i hate being with her i cant stand it anymore. i don't need to get yelled at for nothing and that fact my boyfriend cant even step inside my house makes me want to fucking kill her. like i don't want the only thing that makes me happy to be able to hangout with me . i wish she knew how fucking awful of a parent she is . i want her to realize that. she is a disgrace to moms , and i know for a fact i will not be this cruel to my kid(s). they don't deserve it. its your responsibility to take care of your children so if you don't like how they act then don't fucking make them feel like shit  tell them nicely not to do it again . DON'T YOU DARE say you love your kid if you feel the need to hurt them or make them feel like crap. Because that will never be okay. you don't know  what they'll have to deal with for the rest of there lives all the therapy and the medications and the long talks of how they're just "teenagers" or kids . they don't know how to control there emotions like yes being young doesn't help, but that's not the only problem , my problem isn't my age its the fact that you think i do everything because of my age but i guarantee that i will still act like how i do in 20 years or so nothings going to change , mostly because that's how you raised you kid so if its a problem don't yell at your kids understand they have a lot to deal with too.