#13 11/16/14

I dont know why i thought you were going to stay . i think you tricked me with your looks and your kindness , but i shouldve known that was all temperary . i knew you were going to leave, everyone leaves me  even if they dont intend to they just do. but for some reason you made me beileve youd actually stay with me . but theres always a problem with people and they always end up leaving . those people who "dont want to argue" but it jjust feels like theyve given up on you . i mean if the people you care most about, just stopped trying to deal with your problems  stopped supporting you ... youd feel like shit too.. theres only a handful of people i actually actually care about but most of them left me ... i still continue to think and care about them and how much i missed them  and what did i do that made them leave? then again i have issues myself i push people away alot i just dont know why i feel like i have no one when i know theres people out there that do care about me